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How church can improve your sex life

Posted on by Nicole

Sex – vulnerable, powerful sex – gives you the chance to be laid bare. Your faith and experience of love shifts through it…

Last week was Good Friday and Easter, a time of year that often calls me to deep contemplation and a distinct feeling that the line between heaven and earth is thin.

So I am reminded that our bodies are an important part of our spiritual growth, and as our spirits grow our bodies heal and have more fun.

Sex is as simple as bread. As mindless or meaningful as we want it to be.

I can slap some PB & J on a piece of bread, fold it, and eat it while catching up on Netflix.

Or

I can kneel in a holy space and take the bread, dip it in the wine, and unite my body with the source of Life.

 

Jesus’ story involves the goodness of the soul and the body, both.

Jesus, who spends the night before his death caring for the bodies of his friends – cleaning and serving them. Jesus, who touches the untouchable with no fear or shame.

 

Where do you struggle to feel acceptable?

Where do you feel untouchable?

Where is it difficult to receive care?

When are you tempted to hide parts of yourself?

 

Be honest with your body and your past. Be honest about where you have trouble receiving love on a sensual level. Have the courage and humility to be touched by loving hands.

And do the same for your partner. Sex is a gift to give AND receive. When we receive love into the darkest, most untouchable places, it changes us and grows our hearts. We start to feel the expansive, unflinching love God has for us. It is not a love that stays in the clean, pretty places. It is a love that washes dirty feet. It is a love unafraid of unacceptable, imperfect skin.

Let sex be a spiritual practice of receiving love and acceptance for your whole self.

 

Maybe this Easter, church can improve your sex life. <3

Love, N

 

Never Been Kissed

Posted on by Nicole

Advent. We wait. We wait for God to come down here and be with us. Just hurry up and be with us.

Yesterday, I felt it, that dull discomfort of waiting for things to be RIGHT – To feel God with me and to feel Him making all things comes together for Good.  I wanted it, bad.  

This incredible waiting that is called LIFE drives some of us mad.  We get short burst of fun, joy, beauty, and meaning and then we wait again. This incredible waiting, like watching intermittent shooting stars when what we really need is dawn.

We wait for heaven and the Light of the World to come.  Heaven will not just be for our souls. Heaven involves our bodies too.  This is the gift of making love.  

God, your kingdom come on earth as it is in heaven – not just in our hearts but in our bodies too.

In honor of Advent and Love and Making It coming together this week, today we have the gift of reading a personal essay from a woman who has never been kissed and is beginning to let herself feel the desire and hope of what will come someday.  May all our waiting and longing be this vulnerable and brave.

-Nicole

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I dreamed a few months ago that I had my first kiss.

Yes, I’m 25 and I’ve never been kissed – or even been on an official date. I was a little too “mature” (and obnoxious) in high school to stoop to “chasing boys,” and I was a little too driven in college to take time out for life. Which is strange, really. I’ve always wanted the support of a relationship and the chance to build a life with another person and love them unconditionally. I want the deep friendship of shared experience and ideas and the knowing of each other that comes from that. I want to explore the world of sensuality and romance in a healthy way, which I haven’t always. Other things have just gotten in the way.

It doesn’t take a significant other to experience growth, of course. Sometimes that can even inhibit it. I’ve grown more in these last two years at home dealing with chronic fatigue than I think I have my whole life. I’m learning to make space for myself, and that I have a right to take up room in the world. I’m learning to let go of other peoples’ burdens and pick up my own oxygen mask first in a crisis. I’m learning to lean in, to stand my ground, to experience life ready to fall and fail and make mistakes and then get right back up again.

I think it’s appropriate that my dream took place at some kind of fancy dinner. I’ve discovered a deep love for food and cooking since I’ve been home. I even remember what I was eating in the dream – it was some kind of deconstructed gourmet s’more with a white chocolate mousse and graham cracker crumbles served in a martini glass. Which actually sounds delicious.

It’s also appropriate that in my dream, I spilled some on my shirt. I’m kind of a messy person, a fact I’ve hated my whole life. I bump into things and fall up the stairs. I spill things all the time and have never managed to keep my room clean. I have big curly hair that goes frizzy in the rain. As much as I’ve always wanted to be sleek and svelte, I’m learning that I’m really a flannel pajamas and fuzzy socks kind of girl. And that I’m beautiful, curly hair and all.

So, laughingly, I tried to wipe the spill off my shirt, standing by the table. My date laughed too, kindly. He put water on a napkin and helped me clean up the mess.

We were standing close then, of course, and when I noticed I felt the urge to back away. Not because I was afraid of him, but because I had heard what happens when people stand too close. Because it’s the reflex I’d developed overseas to protect myself and maintain purity and propriety. Because I wouldn’t want to send mixed signals or be rejected or make someone else uncomfortable go too far or do any of the dozen other things I’ve been warned about. There are no guarantees when you let people get too close.

But this time, I stood my ground instead. I chose to take up my own space and let someone else move out of the way, for a change, if this wasn’t what they wanted.

I looked up at him – he was definitely taller than me – and closed my eyes.

He leaned down and we kissed. My heart beat fast.

Then he put his arm around me and walked with me to a quiet corner, a bench where we could sit together and just be.

There was no rejection, only welcome. Only peace. Only the comfort of knowing I was home.

I don’t expect my real first kiss to be quite this revelatory, necessarily. But now, I think I’m finally ready to find out.

 

 

Songbird

Ellie Ava:  I’m a storyteller, an explorer, and an avid fan of all things science… especially when it’s fiction. After many years of exploring new cultures and perspectives in Europe, I’m back in the USA taking time to discover the things bubbling up in my own heart and mind. I blog about life at ellieava.tumblr.com.